![]() ![]() If I'd gone in there remembering/knowing that, I doubt I'd have said it! I had focused so much on the blaspheming part that I forgot (or never knew/realized in the first place) that it also said speaking against the Holy Spirit is unforgivable. It's just so hard to find comfort from it when it says right there in the Bible, from *Jesus'* own mouth, that whoever speaks against the Holy Spirit won't be forgiven. He knows I wasn't saying it out of a hardened heart, and He knows I regret it. My mom tells me that God knows about my OCD and He knows I'm mentally ill. I've prayed a heck of a lot about it and apologized to God over and over, and I feel awful about it. I've read all sorts of websites that *should* reassure me, but I'm still struggling to find that reassurance. Now I'm worried that God has abandoned me, that He won't forgive me for saying it, because it says right in Matthew that speaking against the Holy Spirit won't be forgiven. I just said it because he asked me and I, in my desperate attempt to get help, told him, because I wanted him to help me and reassure me. There was no malice behind it I wasn't trying to turn my counselor away from Jesus, obviously. Now I'm terrified that I've committed the unforgivable sin because I spoke against the Holy Spirit, even though I didn't believe/want what I was saying. I cleaned it up a little, so there was no real cursing, but the gist of it was still there. Well, I had my first appointment with a Christian counselor last week, and he asked me, 'What sort of blasphemous thoughts are you having?' One of these was directed right at the Holy Spirit, and it was awful. Of course after finding out about the unforgivable sin, I became terrified and started having all sorts of intrusive thoughts about it. ![]() Recovery being like a family in many ways, allows us to support one another together. This forum is designed to be like Christian Advice, only for recovery type of issues. If you have spiritual issues related to a mental health and recovery issue, please use the Recovery Related Spiritual Advice forum. Any any that is related to emotions, self-esteem, insomnia, anger, relationship dynamics due to mental health and recovery and other issues that don't fit better in another forum would be examples of topics that might go there. If you are having struggles, need support in a particular area that you aren't finding a specific recovery area forum, you may find the General Struggles forum a great place to post. Physical Health still remains as it's own area within the entire Recovery area. As we had two large areas making it difficult for many to find, we decided to combine the Mental Health & the Recovery sections of the forum into Mental Health & Recovery as a whole. The General Mental Health Forum is now a Read Only Forum. ![]()
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